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10/2/04
I feel: big picture...izing
Okay first, to all you non-existant readers, relax. I'm still going to update it regularly, just as soon as I do my organization
thingie. Hopefully, that will happen this weekend. Secondly, oh my gosh. I feel like strangling something. This whole fucking
mess is like a fucking SOAP OPERA! I look around my house, and see a dog, sleeping peacefully, and I think of simplicity.
And then I look inside my head, and I scream. What the hell is going on in the world, with people around me? I read people's
blogs, and it's like going inside myself. The only difference is that they are secure enough to write about their real selves
out here, and I write about my fakey, happy, self. I barely show the real self that's cracking under the mounds of insanity
in the world. I am so messed up right now, I'm not even being articulate. I don't even think that word means what I want
it to mean. I need to lie in my bed, and stare at the purple swirly curtains until I can deal with this.
9/11/04
I feel: meh
Wow. Last weekend (meaning not this weekend) was big. First, I left for Minnesota with my family to drop off Ethan for college.
Then I got back quickly so I could make it to Tove's party, which rocked (see other blogs for details), even if I couldn't
make it for the thing before... the next day we went to my house for a while and then to Reena's and the NEXT day said good-bye
to Tove for real. I'm not handling all these good-byes very well. Good news is the DVD worked! YAY!!! I'm bored though.
People not answering phones!!!! CALL ME!!!! Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...........
8/30/04
I feel: weirdish
Woah. I so did not update this whatsoever during the summer. And school starts the day after tomorrow. I am basically ready
for it. Yeah, I haven't updated anything in forever. THAT IS IN THE PAST! Starting the 3rd, I update every Friday!!! All
three of my sites, too. I am mega-organized now. Okay, umm, don't expect them to be perfect, because they need some major
cleaning up, but at least I'm working on them again.
5/31/04
I feel: random
This is very not-up-to-date. Hmm... I'll probably write more in summer. WHICH IS COMING SOON!!! Just a few more days...
Come to think of it, I have a very busy summer, so maybe I'll write less. Whatever. My dad's bugging me to get off the computer
now... grrr... VOTE FOR LARRY CAME OUTWARDS!!! (And can you tell I'm officially grammar princess?)
5/1/04
I feel: stressed/relaxed
I know that's weird, but I just finished an incredibly tough week at school, and now it's the weekend, but I still have jobs
and homework, and a few errands too. This is driving me insane! I actually have a schedule!! On Saturday! Well, more like
a list, but I have to start it at a certain time. What's worse, I really feel like going to a movie! But no. Not today.
Well, not yet, anyway. I might be able to later, if I'm efficient. This is a completely different topic, but I finished the
Jumble my fastest ever! I didn't have trouble with any of the words! So, no one cares? SO WHAT? The Jumble rocks.
4/14/04
I feel: jumpy
I wanna DO something!!! Ugh! I don't want to sit around home anymore today, even if I am listening to AWESOME music. Bouncing
is fun. I learned that yesterday. It feels like SUMMER, and not just cuz we have no school. MUST DO SOMETHING!!! But I
don't feel like calling anyone... ugh, I will anyway.
3/25/04
I feel: bored
Wow! Why is it that 90% of the time I am bored? School I am, and I have the doodles to prove it. And now, with half my friends
in Washington D.C., I'm bored at home. Sigh... well, I just have to speak about the pointlessness of health class. You know
how that DARE program just made people more curious to do drugs? Well, if health class is abstinence-based...
3/12/04 6:44 PM
I feel: VERY NERVOUS
State is tomorrow. Scared. It'll be fun though. Did you know that the "b" key is right next to the "v" key, so it is possible
that instead of "very" you will type in "bery" or even "berry!" Gosh, the possiblitities of a hyper mind.
3/5/04 7:49 PM
I feel: meh
Ida know. I just feel normal. Nothing new, that's why I haven't done anything for a while. Does anyone know where I can get
a good buddy icon?
2/17/04 4:57 PM
I feel: ?
I don't know how to say my mood, let me do a stream-of conciousness entry, and see if that explains it: Ow, my braces hurt,
I went to an ortho. I'm listening to good music, I want to go to college, or at least live in my own place, with a bathroom
off the bedroom (long story). I wanna help the world, I'll start with my t-shirt. ANTI-CONSUMERISM ROCKS! Um... I'll make
flyers now. FACT: George W. Bush turned a major national surplus into a major national defeceit and never found any weapons
of mass destruction. QUESTION: Why? Just, why? Ok, got it. I am feeling ADD
2/14/04 6:10 PM
I feel: YAAAAAAAY!!!
Congrats to everyone in forensics for doing so well! Our school placed first!
2/11/04 5:14 PM
I feel: philisophical/crabby
I'm in one of those moods again, where the entire human race is getting on my nerves. This time , though. There's an added
desire to help the world. I can't tell if it's an improvement or not. Oh well. My moods getting better, anyway. Boing. Scooter
is a good band. Which reminds me. Sometimes, I feel like I don't have any ideas, like I'm a fake leader, like I'm just taking
my friends' ideas to extremes. Must work on this. I WILL NOT FOLLOW!
2/8/04 8:02 PM
I feel: VERY BUSY
I'm not as busy as I was, but I still am. This weekend might have been busy, but it was fun.
2/3/04 11:08 AM
I feel: bored AND sick
STOP BUSH!!! Campaigns, flyers, petietions, ralleys, whatever it takes. Brainstorm in my forum about Bush, and ALSO about
ways to get pub. 4 my site, so the campaign will be heard. Or, we can do it opposite. Through the campaign, get publicity
4 my site. Maybe I should make an anti-bush page.
2/2/04 9:56 AM
I feel: still sick
I am getting off the computer, just wanted to mention that I have a holiday calendar now, scroll down, it's the last thing
in the column, called "Holiday Calendar." I don't have every day as a holiday, too hard, and only the cool holidays that no
one knows about. I am finding it hard to type, I'm too sick. UUUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGHHHHH!
2/2/04 8:52 AM
I feel: sick
Ugh... I am coughing sooo much... ugh... I had a fight with my mom too... ugh... all around bad. Um...I had something else
to say... thanks a lot Laureena or Anna for giving this to me... ugh... um...I'm bored...
1/30/04 4:21 PM
I feel: pretty good
Sorry Callie! I was really over-emotional in choir today. It had nothing to do with anybody, not u Tove, either, although
I am sick of you just not bothering to tell me anything. Yeah, bleh! Uh...bye!
1/27/04 4:48 PM
I feel: normal still
Um....I have nothing to say, ha.
1/25/04 9:59 AM
I feel: uh.. normal
Well, I am officially a LOTR lover. NOT a groupie! But, there were some hotties in those movies. My list, with ALL THE NAMES
PRETTY MUCH RIGHT (Okay, I had help):
1. Frodo Baggins~Elijah Wood**
2. Legolas~Orlando Bloom
3. Aragorn (Strider)~Viggo Mortensen*
4. Samwise 'Sam' Gamgee~Sean Astin*
5. Meriadoc 'Merry' Brandybuck~Dominic Monaghan
6. Peregrin 'Pippin' Took~Billy Boyd
*Stupid people! How DARE they get married! Oh well, only in the movie
**Even hotter in real life
So now you know I'm a girl. I had NINE HOURS of LOTR in TWO DAYS! Really concentrated, really awesome. Also, I started a
list of movies and books I should watch/read, any suggestions?
1/19/04 1:28 PM
I feel: too practical
I am so sick of me. I am a worrywart, and i am too worried about my grades and school, and sometimes I wanna just let go.
I want to forget about school tomorrow and just stay up doing crazy stuff! I want to have a meditating retreat, (in my room,
cuz it's cold outside, ha ha) and I want to live my life BETTER!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! In summary, I wanna
do something crazy.
1/19/04 8:34 AM
I feel: like changing my dad.
Got in another fight w/ him. He nags SO much. I know that sounds like such a cliche, but he actually admitted to liking it.
He isn't satisfied until I'm in tears hiding under my covers, begging him to go away. Why is it that I'm happy alone, with
my friends, with my mom and brother (mostly) but NEVER with him??? It's always me who has to change, but maybe I'm not the
only one? I mean, it takes two to fight, I think our personalities just clash, but I've finally stopped taking all this crap
from him.
1/17/04 9:37 AM
I feel: like changing the world
I'm better now, not so philisophical, not that phil. is a bad thing, it just gets hard to cope with. I'm in a Larry phase,
and GUESS WHAT??? He has a new book!!! Vote For Larry, coming out this MAY!!! I have exerpts that you can download now, from
both books on this site! He updated his site too, www.thegospelaccordingtolarry.com!
1/16/04 Uh...sometime around 9 PM
I feel: philisophical and sick of being philisophical
Urgh! I can't stand this stage! I have this cycle of moods. I'm all happy, and yay, then I'm all crabby and uggy, then I'm
all philisophical and depressed AND crabby! Wonderful... I'm busy, so expect entries only this often.
1/5/04 6:37 PM
I feel: like writing and watching homestar stuff, which I am doing, ha.
Yeah... school started. 4 pointless classes...
1/3/04 11:29 AM
I feel: refreshed and busy
Happy new year peepos! 2000 and FOUR FOUR FOUR!!! Anyway, I have a buncha stuff to do, I will publish new blog soon. the sight
name SHOULD BE: casicecream.tripod.com/notme
12/24/03 2:43 PM
I feel: VERY busy!!!
I am making a new web blog, but this one will be for J-off Kirkberger, um... yeah...not published yet, keep ya posted.
Same date 9:02 PM
I feel: relieved, let down, busy
I still think we should talk Reena. But things seem okay. Uh... I have decided that this is my place to add a bunch of cool
features called "Web Gems" to my site. I don't wanna add them to my normal site, but this one can have it all. I may or may
not include a guestbook (if I can have two), but if I do, the questions will be random.
12/23/03 2:24 PM
I feel: not much, numb, I guess.
If anyone else is reading this besides who I think is, they must be pretty confuzled.
12/23/03 9:30 AM
I feel: shocked/guilty
Reena. Reena Reena Reena. Are you okay? I am sooo sorry. I never meant to sound so mean Friday and in the entry down there.
Just... when you get my e-mail or this message, CALL me, PLEASE. I don't know what else to do.
Same date 7:17 PM
I feel: fairly OK, better Hyperish
I don't know why I failed to mention this before, but I JUST GOT MY EXPANDER OFF!!! My mouth feels SOO weird!!! And COOL!
12/18/03 5:13 PM
I feel: depressed/INSANE
Today was really crappy. If anyone is reading this, which they probably aren't, Lisa, I'm sorry. I'd tell you what's wrong,
but I don't think you'd really understand. Reena, just know that I spent second period in guidance crying because of what
you said. Anyway, if you are a stranger, which you aren't, b/c I'm the only one who reads these anyway, ignore that. And,
there are definite drawbacks to having a (maybe) public journal.
12/17/03 8:33 PM
I feel: ENERGIZED
This is my very FIRST entry!!! I have NOTHING to say, except that I want more publicity for my sites, and that this is not
J-off Kirkberger, this is ******* *****, even if I won't say my name still.
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